stigma associated with fibromyalgia

the one thing i really hate about this disease is the stima associated with it. you tell someone in the medical field or a dr even and they roll they're eyes. that makes me so mad. i understand that fibromyalgia is basically one word for a bunch of symptoms that dr's dont know what causes it or really how to treat it. all i know is there is pain, depression, and a whole bunch of other things that goes with it and i have them all.

ITS NOT IN MY HEAD. thats what my kids think too. that i just make myself have all this stuff. how do i make them understand that its for real. i dont want this, i want to be able to do things, not get tired, not hurt all the time. not get depressed too. i have no idea how to deal with that. i still do the positive thinking and i've done the self hypnosis things but it works for a day or two then it all goes back to the way it was. i've tried the massages but i cant afford it on a regular basis so thats out.

still trying to exercise but i just cant seem to get pasted 15 min walking or on the bike, i just get too exhausted and the leg and back pain havent improved so what do i do now? what is there left to try? i dont want any more medication but what can i do? i know that getting weight off would help tremendously but i'm stuck there too.

so now i leave being depressed again. just an never ending cycle. basically i'm an old, depressed, hypocondriac with no end in site. what to do what to do. until next time, thanks.